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HOUSE OF CARDS
I wrote this at 1 AM last night...the style is very
different. It's present tense, for one thing, and the writing is
"skin-and-bones" on purpose as that's indicative of the atmosphere in
the household.
He returned four months ago, out of some vague promise muttered in a
moment of quixotic, near-Shakespearan desperation.
He keeps his
promises and she respects him for that.
She can – and
does – lie unblushing, but whenever Harry tries to pull the wool over
her eyes, the corners of his mouth twitches and his ears flush and his
wrought hands fumble tellingly.
He doesn’t say
much anymore – telling neither poorly-executed lies nor half-truths.
He’s content to sit in silence, pondering unknowable things. She hates
silence with a vengeance. Silence reminds her of the diary, the
noiseless deception. Silence reminds her of the Chamber. Sometimes she
goes about the house, prattling to him as if he were a small child, with
syllables and allophones all beyond his comprehension. Sometimes she
leans in close and whispers “I’m leaving you, Harry” in his ear.
She wants to
leave.
She wishes he
would drink. At least if he was a day drunk, a raging alcoholic, she
could pin down his condition, snatch away the brandies and vodkas, and
pitch them into the Thames.
He doesn’t drink.
She nurses a
drink in the middle of the day, sitting on the window ledge gazing at
the withered flowers that no one has bothered to water.
She’s wilting
from inside out.
She gets out his
old Quidditch uniforms and drapes them artfully over the back of the
sofa, hoping to coax the old Harry out of hiding.
He would rather
languish, with endless pacing his only outlet.
On Sunday
afternoons, Ron and Hermione come ‘round and the old Harry tentatively
sniffs the air. They sit in the parlor and talk about The Before. It’s
the Before The End that they speak of, or so she surmises from the
snippets of conversation she can hear from her haunt in the stairwell.
Sometimes the names of the dead cross their lips. Cedric Diggory, and
wasn’t he a fair competitor? Sirius Black, and didn’t he hide out in the
hills above Hogsmeade just to be at Harry's side? Albus Dumbledore. Rubeus Hagrid. Peter
Pettigrew. Susan Bones. Severus Snape.
She knows he
still looks at Hermione in that same sidelong way – the same way his
eyes drifted from his furiously blushing bride to her brown-tressed Maid
of Honor on their wedding day. A part of her knew it even at that early
hour. Maybe that singular glance was why she kept her maiden name; it
would save her the trouble of switching back.
Sometimes they
speak of better days. Doesn’t Harry remember Fred and George’s canary
creams? And doesn’t Hermione recall the telling-off the Pink Lady gave
them, the night of the duel-that-never-was? Their laughter rings
throughout the house – their trembling house of cards that she can no
longer hold together.
As afternoon
slips into dusky eventide, he reaches across the coffee table and takes
Hermione’s hand. Hermione doesn’t pull away.
And crouched in
the stairwell, Ginny Weasley is going spare.

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